Sunday, July 20, 2003
I'm in the middle of the ride . . . Jimmy had it right. He was singin' to me. But it's so tough. All I want is freedom! I guess Andrew Lloyd had it right too. Maybe that is why I'm always online? Maybe I trying to be stealth in my freedom-gaining experiments. This city, this church, this house, this family, and this self are all feeling like they are constricting and strangling the very life out of my soul, or spirit? I don't know who I am and somehow I feel that I need to leave everything that defines who I am on the outside in order to find the essence of who I am. Will those that love me support me in this quest? I don't think they will. I'm not crazy, just a little unwell. But stay a while, you'll see that there's a different side to me!!! People don't like change, especially change in someone they love. So here goes . . . a quest that will hurt me and everyone else. But that's growing, right?
posted by Mary 11:56 PM
